Yeah,Yeah(sniffle-sneeze),Yeah

Suki and I had a loooong discussion about her coming back and what she has been up to the past few years.According to her she moved to a high priced resort area about 90 minutes away.She had been advertising and setting her own outcall appointments until a year ago when she married for the second time since leaving Ambrosia.This story seems a bit unlikely.Suki really doesn't have the personality or phone voice to be vocally enticing.(She only had to make enough money to support herself though.She could get by comfortably with 5-6 appointments per week and she does have the asian description working for her so maybe it's true.)The competition in that area is rather stiff.
She spent 15 minutes telling me she had gained weight since I had last seen her.After the first 10 minutes I wasn't sure if she was trying to convince herself or me that she could still make money and was attractive.(I constantly hire girls I do not personally find attractive.Beauty is truly in the eye of the beholder and I have been suprised by what some men find arousing.Some of the girls who realize they are not as pretty as the others make up for it in personality and enthuaism.)She assured me it wasn't like she weighed 300lbs it was just that she was use to being very petite and was feeling a little self conscience.We talked for a few minutes more about the girls currently working with me and updates on the ones she remembered.The conversation ended with our agreeing that she start on Saturday night(It is one of the busiest nights of the week and making money would boost her confidence.New girls generally always get picked alot their first weekend nights if they get the party or not depends on their negotiating skills.)
Suki called late Friday night with some lame excuse why she could not come in Saturday.I was angered but gave her the benefit of the doubt and we agreed she would start Monday(today) instead.Tonight she did indeed show up.Even though I didn't feel good today and wasn't working I made up an excuse to stop by so I could get a look at her.She looked the exact same.I don't know where she gained weight but it definitely wasn't in the butt(still flat as aboard) or boobs.During the hour or so I hung around she was very quiet.It was early and only a few clients wandered in but she didn't make eye contact or smile.The weight complex is defifnitely going to hurt her money.I don't expect her to be around long.She feels inferior to the others.It's a shame because she has a pretty face and a look that could make her alot of money if she would let it.Diana called at closing and I asked about Suki.Although we had a good night she didn't.Several clients spoke with her but ended up getting sessions with other girls.
One of the things I hate most in this business is the lack of comradeship.It is almost like wild animals in the sense that they smell any weakness and lose little time going in for the kill.That is not quite right.They don't always go straight for the jugular sometimes they prefer to make numerous superficial tongue lashings and gnawing away at any hidden insecurities therefore prolonging their superiority as long as possible.Wow,that sounds so negative.In this business most people don't come from loving nurturing backgrounds.Most of the girls that have passed through my doors have for one reason or another learned to fend for themselves in what everway they must.Self preservation by whatever means possible is a common motto.By preservation I don't mean simple phyical living and breathing as much as sanity.We all weave our own fantasy some more complex and irrational than others.Luckily there is usually one shepard among the pack that will maintain peace and stability in my absensce.(This does not apply to everyone in this business.Some of the most considerate people I have ever met have been in this industry.When I vent the good things and people take a backseat to the evil.Itry to tkae everyone at face value and give them a chance before lumping them in the meanie pile.)Unfortunately for everyone at Ambrosia my most revered has given notice that in a month she will take leave to guard over and protect herself and the beginnings of her very own brood in her womb.Isabella is not far into her pregnancy but is constantly sick and doesn't feel she is doing me or herself any good and has decided to work no longer.
I still don't feel good.The cat seems to be aggrevating my allergies terribly.I don't understand how my dogs don't bother me but this kitten is killing me.They must have different types of dander or something.
Maybe tomorrow will be a happier day and I will actually make you smile instead of whatever I did today.